Might As Well Write Love. (Part 1: What I think love is)

Late at night

Yet again

The need to type 

Flows to my head

It's strange

How my thoughts
Come only in the dead of morning. 

Well, I've decided that I should write about love. The name of my blog is loved based after all.   Ah... Je t'aime.  The cheesiest and most repetitive thing that bloggers can write about.  So many people have so many thought's on love and what it is, but we still haven't quite seemed to figured out.  Why?  Why would God create something so everlasting and vast and emotional that people would search for it their whole lives.   From the time that a human is born to the day they die, they will always look for love.  We subconsciously look for this "crazy little thing called love".  And still when we find it, we continue to search.  But why? What in the human mind, craves to just be loved?

I am speaking as a broken hearted teen, who has been in relationships that have obviously, ended.  Just like any other teen I know what it's like to go through a brake up.  At the time it seems the the most terrible thing in the world.  But why is that? Why is it such a traumatic experience to hear the words "it's over" or "well ya see... there's this guy".  Well here it is; my input on what I believe. 

There are so many points you could bring on about love.  So many things that I could say, or so many places that I could start. I'm overwhelmed as to what exactly what to say. (Which is probably hinting that I should have planned this a little better(: )  But I suppose I could go into explaining a little about myself.  

I've always had a crush on some guy at one point in time, the first being in kindergarten.  A boy that would swing on the swing next to me everyday at recess.  My first heartbreak was one day looking up and then seeing the empty swing, still swinging back and forth.  I think back to the innocence of that time, and the slight ping of disappointment I felt when I saw that he wasn't there.  Then fast-forwarding to my middle school years and that slight disappointment turned itself into tears of sadness that flowed down my face as I sat with my sister and talked to her about my guy problems.  

Teenagers seem to think that when it comes to love, the phrase "your to young to know what love is" is just a big lie.  It's rubbish that your parents tell you, and they obviously don't know what they're talking about.  This is something I've heard many of my friends say.  It seems that anytime an adult mentions anything about love and relationships, teens seem to roll their eye's and block out anything that they have to say.  It's painful to admit, I have to say.  But these people we scoff at, hold things from their past that will connect to our future.  And they are wise.  And pride will be ignored in saying that these people that have raised us or have had part in our lives, are right.  Us teenagers don't know what we're talking about when it comes to love.  In fact we barely even know what we're talking about when we mention life.  

But I come here to this blog with thoughts that I've had, other blogs that I've read, and older siblings and parents that I've talked to.  I have no idea what love is. I just know that it exists.  Do you have to know what something is to feel it?  So I suppose I should start off with the question; What do I, personally and in all honesty, think love is?  

I've heard many people talk about it.  I've heard answers like God is Love or, the corny youtube video phrases you'll find in most love song lyric videos. But what I think love is... is something different.  I think love, is a relationship glued together by God.  Not the high school romance.  I believe that when you truly love someone, your always striving to be the best you can be, just for them.  You always do what's best for the person you love, weather it's keeping them pure, or telling them the truth, even when it's painful.  Love is unconditional, it's invincible, impenetrable.  Love is the gear that make the heart beat.  Love is in everyone's heart no matter how deep you'd have to dig to find it.  Love cannot be squelched by greed, power, jealousy... Love. is. greater. than. this.  Love is a bigger thing than of what we've defined it to be.  But who can give this kind of love?  Who can show this much devotion from one person to another?  I must say, that there is only one.  God, Christ... Christ showed this type of love.  He knew love and showed love better than any other person that has ever lived.

If you were to study the life of Jesus, you'd see it every where.  He was the perfect example of love, and he knew where he was walking.  Some people see love as a care-free lawless flush of emotion, they see it as unrestricted.   But if you had a puppy in the city, would you let it off the leash risking that high possibility for it to die?  Only Christ showed this kind of love for us.  He showed the people what was better for them, seeing that they'd be happier in the long run.  He knew that what they hated now would only benefit them later.  If not in riches and money than riches in wisdom, or gain in maturity.  All I can say to who ever is reading this right now, is read the life of Jesus, and tell me, that you don't see this agape love.  Tell me that everything he said, and everything he did was out of a thing that no human could ever amount to.  Tell me that everything he said to anyone in the walk was out of hatred.  I assure you that you will find none there.  And in every honesty, it amazes me that until just now, I realized none of what he did.  I wonder what kind of person could turn down an shove off as unimportant, that kind of love, for people that could never even come close to a love a this.  That's what I think love is.  Christ continuing to search for my heart, no matter how many times, I've rejected his precious, precious love.  That... is true love.  Love to which no one but him can ever amount to.